As I write this blog, we are in our second winter of the pandemic and closing in on the 1-year mark of when COVID-19 started to impact our lives.

I remember the week leading up to the announcement of restrictions on travel, and our daily habits. I was actually visiting Kingston, part family trip but for the most part a work trip. The work part involved connecting with the wonderful Kingston-based team members that support Find Your Voice Music Therapy’s clients. Little did I know that this would be the end of my quarterly trips to Ontario until… well we still don’t know.

I am curious by nature. I am not curious in the let's dig into the research kind of way. I actually don’t like data that much. My curiosity sits in the conceptual. I am curious about how things work in more of an intuitive way.

I recently completed training to become a Lumina Spark Practitioner. I have had Lumina Spark in my life for many years but recently I was drawn to becoming certified – to take a deeper dive into the work and then to dig into the connection between Lumina Spark and the heart centered work that I do with the Desire Map program.

As I am writing this I am not sure what the answers are. In past journal entries I’ve written about caring for self with loving kindness… I thought I had it figured out. I thought I was finding my way. I thought I had finally arrived.

But once again, life feels messy and frustrating. Despite my best efforts to move forward consistently and intentionally, I am now in a place where it feels like two steps forward, one step back on one day and then, one step forward and two steps back on the next.

Confession Time: I may have journaled about how to plan during a pandemic – but full-disclosure I am currently experiencing ‘planning-block’. I can not get myself into the ‘zone’ to dream for next year.  So this week planning is on pause.